I really need help. I am so depressed. No hope in my life!!!?

I came from foreign country. I am a christan. My husband is a nice man but his uneducated mom have abused him since he was born, so he has low self-esteem and lack confidence.I really wish my husband is a real man. I get married for 7 years, and his mother verbally abuse me for 7 years and everytime my husband want me understand her and accept the situation. Both of us lack real life experience and we did wrong investment and get finanical burden. three month ago, I got a awful job and hate it and quit.Now i stay home with my little baby. My husband don't know how and don't commincate with me since we got married. i felt we aren't a couple and are brother and sister. I have no parents and relative here. recently , I know a native American single white guy, I don't know him too much but i know he has something my husband don't have . outgoing personality, confidence.... i get a crush on him and I am so attracted to him. I know he likes me.But i can't tell him. what can i do?